Out on a morning walk, I wander into the native planting section of Winnemac Park. There are wood chips on the ground, soft landing for my feet. A low wooden fence.
I’ve been here before. But it’s been a few weeks. Months. I’m not sure. I lose track of time.
Today the planting is as tall as my head. Taller. Green stalks, some with yellow flowers and brown centers. Purple flowers and greenish centers. What we used to call Queen Anne Lace when I was a child. I have to push my way through it, clearing the way for my next step. Jungle-like.
I am smiling.
I walk through it again on my way back home, as the morning grows hot and humid. This time I pull out my ear buds. Right after Labelle’s Lady Marmalade.
It is so quiet. Right here in the city. I hear the birds. The dogs. The cars passing by on the perimeter merely a hushed vibration. It immediately feels different.
I don’t know why I’m surprised.
My ex always had music playing. And while I love it, I often found it overwhelming. I craved the quiet.
And yet, now living on my own, music is very much a part of my background. Perhaps the quiet frightens me now, alone with my thoughts.
But now it feels like a respite. A great, big exhale. As if I am on an entirely different walk. As if the walk just moments before had never been. The change is palpable.
I look to a weeping willow and think, “I need to come here every day. Even just for 10 minutes. To walk on the wood chips. To get lost in this “forest” of native planting.”
Ah. That still small voice. I couldn’t hear it over the Donna Summer Pandora Channel (which, by the way, is excellent for walking…except when you are trying to hear that still small voice.)
I greet a big, black lab on the path. He is off-leash. I am afraid for a moment. I peer around the corner looking for his owner. “Is he friendly?” I ask. He is.
His owner had been lost in his own world –his nose tucked into one of the tall purple daisy-like flowers.
I feel a tinge of sadness leaving. I always want more.
Walking home I admire the beautiful teak wood furniture on the porch of a brownstone. Its pads noticeably missing. The greenish brass elephants flanking it.
Wooden flower boxes hang off the window of a multi-unit brick building. The only ones – obviously installed by the tenant. His joy. Her contribution to the neighborhood.
Tiny gardens are planted in the small open spaces outside of single-family homes and brown-stone three-flats. Shady spaces, lush with green leaves and plantings, moist rocks and black earth. A burgundy Japanese maple.
I smile, sort of wistfully, at the sad attempt at yarn bombing on the trees outside of the church across the street.
Arriving home, my mind is noticeably still. I could hear Pandora playing in my bag, I had forgotten to turn it off – The Weather Girls, “It’s Raining Men.” Miracle. I hadn’t been thinking of them at all.
One of my readers invited me on an Artist Date. Number 30.
Actually, she’s a friend…and a reader. Her name is Stephanie. Last week, she sent me an email inviting me to the Bucktown Tree and Garden Walk. Hers would be among the 80-plus featured.
I was touched, delighted that she had somehow become “involved” enough in my story, in my process, to join in, to help me along.
So Saturday morning I pedal my vintage Raleigh to her neighborhood. The day is sunny and hot, but not humid. A Chicago miracle.
I tie up my bike at Club Lucky and buy a ticket for the walk. In exchange for $5, I receive a map of the gardens with descriptions of each, access to a complimentary trolley, and a coupon for $10 my next meal of $35 or more.
I hear my name called. It is a woman I used to know. I didn’t recognize her. She isn’t surprised to see me. She heard I moved back to town. That I am divorced. Chicago feels like a small town. It is comforting.
We embrace. And I jump back on my bike, headed to Stephanie’s, forgoing the trolley.
Her partner Errol is on the porch painting, plein air. She is inside sautéing onions and baking a pizza – snacks for the other artists expected today.
She gives me a tour of her home, its walls spilling over with her artwork, Errol’s and that of other creatives. Her first still life hangs in the stairwell. It is a pear. Or is it an onion and ramps? There are several, grouped together. I don’t recall. In some ways it doesn’t really matter. Her raw natural talent is obvious. It is the kind that makes me wonder why I bother.
Stephanie and Toulouse
I meet her cat Toulouse, and a black one whose name escapes me. He is missing some bone in his head, which makes his face appear somewhat smushed.
I leave my helmet and my basket with her, and receive explicit directions to stop by Sam and Nick’s. She points out their location on the map. “Just tell them we sent you.”
On the way I stop at my first floral garden, (Stephanie and Errol’s was planted with art – some framed and hanging. Other funky and environmental. A striped sidewalk created with a power washer and wood planks. Painted sticks growing out of the soil. Their colors “changing” from orange to green depending on your position. Like a painting by the Israeli artist, Agam.)
Marsha is watering plants. She seems surprised to see me. Actually, many of the garden owners do. As if they have forgotten that the garden walk is today.
She shows me her zinnias and her tomatoes. Nothing remarkable, but lovely. Sweet. Growing.
Walking into the private space of a stranger, I am reminded of being in Amsterdam. According to my Frommer’s guide residents intentionally keep their shutters open – proud of their homes, inviting a peek inside.
This is Marsha’s first season in the garden. She moved in recently, leaving the suburbs and joining her husband in the city. Her house is on the market and she is keeping her fingers crossed. She gives me hope – seeing her in this new space, putting down roots, with a partner. And also knowing that she had a life all her own before this change. And I assume, to a certain degree, still does.
I don’t tell her any of this. Instead I tell her about my recollections of Amsterdam, how I recently killed a cactus, and about being invited on an Artist Date by her neighbor. I run my hands through a tomato plant and bring them to my face. I love the smell. I rub my hands on my neck, as if putting on the earth’s fragrance. I thank her and say goodbye.
A wading pool is set up at the corner of Hoyne and Moffat, along with a glass bubbler filled with ice water, cucumber, melon and strawberries. A few chairs are perched in the shade of a tree. There is a note, “Relax and Hydrate.” I fill up my water bottle and keep moving.
I stop at Nick and Sam’s. Sam is wearing a white bee keeper’s hat. I go inside and talk with Nick about his artwork. Striking etchings using photos from the Kinsey Institute. He points out the racy elements because I don’t see them – not at first.
I admire his collection of roller-skate cases lined up on a shelf, each with a tag hanging from it – letting him know what is stored inside.
I visit more than a dozen gardens. Some consisting of little more than sod on a double-wide lot – one with a basketball net and cement court, another with a large inflatable swimming pool. Two toddler girls in matching hot pink bathing suits and white sun hats are wading in it. Their limbs, deliciously chunky.
Others sit on top of garages, tucked behind homes.
I follow arrows and stairs climbing up. Water spills out of the wall and is caught in a ceramic bowl, a chalice. Suspiciously clean, striped pads sit on top of teak furniture. Several blue umbrellas block the sun. A man, presumably the owner, offers me a bottle of water from a cooler. I feel like I am at a spa.
At another, an intruder. I am greeted by a man eating his lunch under a wooden canopy covered with vines, listening to the radio. His daughter hangs shyly behind him, swaying side to side, her head following her hips.
Most of the homes are noticeably without “hosts.” Only a laminated card, with a number corresponding to the map, identifies them as part of the walk.
I had expected storybook gardens, like something from the south. Manicured. Dense. Sweetly pungent. Or wild and overgrown, with tall, smiling sunflowers – like my favorite one in Mendocino, a sleepy resort town on the northern California coast. A sign implores visitors to photograph, but to refrain from picking.
Instead I encounter mostly neatly trimmed hedges, modest groupings of plants and flowers that clearly thrive, creative use of small space —bringing nature into the city.
I remember moving to Chicago the first time, in 2007. I was heart-sick for San Francisco. For pastel-painted Victorians, rolling fog and rolling green hills. I made it my mission to take the most beautiful path I could wherever I went. The one with the most trees, prettiest homes. I had forgotten about that.
Eventually I settled into Chicago. My surroundings ceased to be new. And I ceased to notice them. Until today.
I return to Stephanie and Errol’s to pick up my things. A few of Errol’s painter friends are here. They ask if I am a painter. I shake my head. I tell them that I am a writer, a dancer, a frustrated potter. A girl on an Artist Date, being reminded of the loveliness all around me.
I like to think I am aware of my surroundings.
I feel a tinge of sadness leaving. I always want more.
A Wandering Jewess 